Heart Broken

Today is rough. 

Last night we went and had dinner with the in-laws.  About a week ago they were kind enough to offer to finance the adoption for us.  they kept saying "why would you borrow when we can loan it to you?"  We did not ask them for help--that was never in our plan, but when they offered it was such a huge relief!  We could see the light at the end of this long tunnel.  So after dinner they inform us that they are no longer willing to loan us the money.  They questioned if this was a wise financial decision, if a child was really worth all that money.  They asked is we could find a cheaper agency.  They said that us getting a second car right now should be a priority.  And it went on and on.  I had to just walk out before I said anything out of anger.

The MIL e-mailed me and said she was sorry if something that they said made me mad.  LIKE SHE DOESN'T KNOW WHY I AM MAD!!!!!  They lied to us.  They let us live on cloud 9 for a week and then ripped it away and we are supposed to be happy?  AND... then they questioned the value that we place on our child--our family.  I don't know about anyone else but I can't imagine putting a price on my child.  I am not mad about the loan--that we can take care of, but they should not have offered and then went back on it.  What really ticks me off is that they made this all sound like some big shady business deal--or a luxury purchase.  They just don't get that this is our family.

Needless to say I am done speaking to them for a bit.  Maybe when they get to hold their grandchild they will realize that he/she is priceless!

Trying to gracefully ignore the idiots,
Mrs. B.