Faith

In the last three years I have attended church on a fairly irregular basis like maybe 1-2 times a month.  We always go to Catholic mass because Mark is Catholic.  On Saturday we went to mass and I found myself antsy and angry.  I couldn't stand the ritualistic feel of things.  I caught myself saying the prayers mindlessly and just following the crowd.  I spaced out through most of the sermon-all I remember is something about Alzheimers.  This is not how church is supposed to feel!  At that moment I was feeling like I hadn't been to church in years--and it was horrible.

Afterwards I decided to have a serious heart to heart with my hubby.  We talked about our beliefs surrounding God and church and how worship should happen.  We both agreed that we believe in God.  Mark wasn't sure that we needed to go to church in order to worship though.  I pointed out that we don't worship at home either so he conceded that maybe we did indeed need to physically attend in order to worship.  Surprisingly Mark agreed that he wanted to try a new church.  We discussed various churches in the area and not all catholic ones.  We agreed to attend church with a co-worker of mine at a Lutheran church.

Sunday rolled around and I could tell the Mark was less than excited.  We had a huge fight and were both in the worst of moods by the time we got to church.  All I could think was how are we ever going to find the right place if we don't walk in with open hearts?

Immediately I was at ease.  People were so kind and inviting.  This was the church experience that I remembered and loved.  The service was pretty good and I left with such a great feeling in my heart.  As we got in the car Mark looked at me and said "is it weird that I want to dance?"  No baby its not weird.

We are going to try a few more churches over the next couple of weeks but I am very optimistic that we will find a church to call home.